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Love 💗 and Remarriage Part 12

Wednesday, April 25th, 2018

When we stopped at the end of the previous post, based on my historical novel, “Escape From the Maelstrom,” Feodor had surprised 😮 Aleksandra by his passionate kiss, something that he said that he had wanted to do for a very long time. How did she react to the kiss?

The Kiss seemed to mesmerize Aleksandra. I wanted the reader to picture her sitting there next to Feodor ecstatically happy for the first time in months. She is in her own world of euphoria as Feodor tells her he will speak to his son and grandson. She is barely listening as he tells her that he knew what love at first sight was like because he had felt that way when he had met Nadya, his first wife and the mother of his children. He goes on to tell Aleksandra that he plans to court her with the intention of marrying her when the appropriate amount of time has passed.

But Feodor had not actually, in so many words, asked Aleksandra how she felt. So she asks him,

“‘Don’t you want to ask me first, Feodor, what I think,’” I said softly.

“In answer to my question, he gathered me in his strong arms again and kissed me as amorously as he did the first time. When he released me, he said with a mischievous smile, ‘I know from your kisses and the way you look into my eyes that you love me, too.’ And then with a deep breath, I returned his smile and watched with no resistance left as he winked at me and left the room to talk to his family.”

Yes, the love was mutual. What would happen next?

See the next post! Remember that the novel is available online at www.redleadbooks.com or at www.amazon.com. You can also call the Red Lead Bookstore at 1-800-788-7654.

Love 💗 and Remarriage: Part 11

Friday, April 20th, 2018

Is it too soon for Aleksandra and Feodor, the principal characters in my historical novel, “Escape From the Maelstrom,” to seriously proceed in their romantic relationship? There has been no closure for Aleksandra, and she has not allowed herself to go through any of the stages of grief. Yet, she has found herself connected emotionally to Feodor Daletsky. So what happens next?

Feodor refuses to be dictated to by his grandson or anyone else in regard to his personal relationships. Therefore, he confronts his son, Anatoli, and his grandson, Akek, when they return from work that day. Let’s listen in!

“When Feodor found his son and grandson a short time later, Alek apparently had no choice but to tell them both who he really was and why I was really staying at their home. The news brought out even more love in Feodor but made Anatoli very nervous.”

Alek warns his father and grandfather that no one can divulge the information that they were just given or they would all be at risk, but especially Aleksandra. They both agree.

“A man must do what he must do,” Alek said. “My country is being destroyed by both the Czar and the Bolsheviks. My contacts and I are fighting for a free Homeland for Russia in our own way.”

Then Anatoli says what is in his heart.

“In one way I am proud of you for your idealism, but in another more practical way, I fear for your life and possibly that of the rest of our family as well,” Anatoli said.

“‘Not if we each make a private vow of silence. Those of us who are fighting for a free homeland are true to one another, even unto death.’”

“Then you can expect nothing less of us,” Anatolia said.

“Yes,” Feodor agreed.

“‘And, if you are in love with Aleksandra, Grandfather, and she feels the same way about you, we cannot stop you,’ Alek said, ‘but when she goes to America, it is best that you go with her. You see, if you leave with Aleksandra, people will think that just the two of you were in a conspiracy together, and the rest of us were not involved. Then, later on, arrangements will be made to get the women out and you, too, Father,’ he said to Anatoli.”

Does Aleksandra feel the same way? Is there a marriage in the future of Aleksandra and Feodor? Can they possibly get married when Just a few months before, Aleksandra’s husband was murdered by the Romanovs’ henchmen?

To find out right away, you may want to purchase my novel, “Escape From the Maelstrom.” It is available online at www.redleadbooks.com and
wwww.amazon.com. or you can call the Red Lead Bookstore at 1-800-788-7654

Until the next post, good health and life!

Love 💗 and Remarriage : Part 10

Monday, April 16th, 2018

Although it often ends in frustration or much worse when a bereaved widow/ widower embarks upon a new relationship too soon after a spouse’s death, sometimes, the ending is more hopeful. It might not be a blind alley like marrying on the rebound or acting out of total desperation.

Although it is rare, a relationship that begins before the bereaved goes through the stages of grief can still possibly work. Two people who are depressed and at risk after losing the love 💗 of their lives can at times find consolation and security in another person who has gone through the same thing. Add chemistry and compatibility..and, who knows!

Maybe, it’s one in a million, but such a relationship could work! Who am I to say it is totally impossible? But I don’t recommend it, and I’m sure the majority of professionals (and others) would agree!

But in the case of Aleksandra and Feodor in my novel, “Escape From the Maelstrom,” there seems to be a chance that their relationship may lead to something real. Let’s see what happens!

In my last post we learned that the relationship between Aleksandra and Feodor was getting too intense. Although there was nothing physical yet in their friendship, the emotional attachment between the two was getting stronger and stronger.

Everyone in the Daletsky family from Feodor’s son, grandson, daughter-in-law and two teen-age granddaughters could not miss seeing the looks between their grandfather and Aleksandra as well as Feodor’s infamous winks at the lady. Alek, the grandson who was the family connection with the underground movement for a free Russia, had a talk with Aleksandra to ask her to please end the relationship with his grandfather before it left both of them broken-hearted.

Aleksandra, visibly shaken by the “talk,” decided to see Feodor only when others were present and to hide her true feelings. Months went by until one day Feodor had to find out what was going on and express his true feelings.

In Chapter twenty-two of “Escape From the Maelstrom,” Feodor enters the parlor where Aleksandra is playing the piano. What follows is part of their conversation.

“‘I have a feeling that Alek or his father said something to you to make you avoid me, Aleksandra. You have no time for me anymore, and I have so treasured our friendship.’

“‘My responsibilities at school have left me with little time for anything else, Feodor.’

“‘I know that you are busy, yes, but there is something more to it than just that, and I intend to get to the bottom of it, Aleksandra. As soon as Anatoli and Alek get home, I will have a talk with them, but until then I will do something that I have wanted to do for a very long time.’ Before I could even move, he twirled me around and looked into my eyes tenderly. His deep brown eyes were not merely kind, but warm and sensual. ‘Perhaps, I should not take this liberty,’ he said, ‘but I will, and it is not out of disrespect, my dear Aleksandra, but because I think I am falling in love with you.’”

“Before I could say a word to reason with him, he took me into his arms and kissed me in much the way that Dimitri did when we were first courting, and all our lives seemed to loom before us. I felt so protected and loved that I begged in my heart for the kiss never to end.”

Would the relationship between Aleksandra and Feodor be among the few that could work, even under such bizarre circumstances? The next post will shed some light on this subject!

If you would like to purchase this novel, you can go online at www.redleadbooks.com or www.amazon.com or call the Red Lead Bookstore at 1-800-788-7654 .

💗 Love and Remarriage: Part Nine

Friday, April 13th, 2018

It is so easy for people to judge others in a variety of situations! Instead of making an effort to understand another’s situation, many become overly critical. An especially sensitive issue is related to embarking upon a new relationship after losing a mate in death.

In my novel, “Escape From the Maelstrom,” the main character, Karina, aka Aleksandra, is in a state of shock after her husband of ten years, Dimitri, is killed by the Romanov family, distant relatives of his, who, for some reason unknown to anyone but them, needed to have him silenced.

Karina was then on the run, knowing that she, too, was in danger since she was Dimitri’s wife and now, widow.

When friends in the underground bring Karina to a safe haven in Odessa, she finds a friend in Feodor Daletsky, the patriarch of a Russian peasant family, the grandson of whom is connected with the underground group. In just a few days, Karina, given the name of Aleksandra as part of her new identity package, feels safe with Feodor, and they become good friends. Even with the strong chemistry between them, neither Karina nor Feodor, a widower, knows that their friendship is leading to something more.

Let’s listen in as Alek, Feodor’s grandson, and the connection with the underground movement, warns Aleksandra of where her relationship may be headed and why it is not at all wise to continue on that path.

When Aleksandra returns to the Daletsky home with Feodor after an afternoon outing, she goes into the parlor while Feodor goes upstairs. Alec and his younger sisters are in there, but Alek asks the girls to leave and help their mother in the kitchen. Once they are alone, Alek talks to Aleksandra very seriously.

“We are all your friends, Aleksandra, but Sasha, Uri and I are the only ones who are fully aware of your peculiar situation, and we don’t want any entanglements for you. And as far as my grandfather, he is an old, good-natured man, who thinks too often with his heart rather than with his mind. I don’t want him to get hurt.”

Aleksandra was visibly upset by what Alek has said to her about her friendship with Feodor. Alek knows he is treading upon sensitive territory, but he goes on after Aleksandra tries to defend herself.

“He is my friend, I repeat, Alek. I would never hurt him.”

“But you are already. He seems to have taken quite a liking to you. My parents and I are not blind. Neither are the girls, although they may still be quite young. We can all see the looks and my grandfather’s winks. He is a lonely old man who is much taken with you, a pretty much-younger woman.”

Aleksandra denies any such physical attraction, but Alek continues, “I must do something, for I truly feel that, if I ignore what I have seen, you two will one day very soon fall in love with one another. He misses my grandmother very much, and you are obviously in denial about losing your husband so violently and abruptly. Both of you have entered a fantasy world, but you will be leaving us to go to America as soon as my contacts and I can safely arrange it. What will my grandfather do then when you have gone?”

“‘Please don’t cry, Aleksandra,’ Alek said. ‘I know how difficult it must have been
for you to leave Moscow the way you did, without even going to Dimitri’s funeral. You must be torn inside. The pain must be like a deep chasm, but you can’t turn to my grandfather to fill the gaps. You have to face your loss and go through the stages of grief as they come. If you don’t, Aleksandra, you may never be whole again, and in the interim, you may very well break my grandfather’s heart.’”

Aleksandra was at first angry and resentful to hear Alek’s warning and severe criticism of her relationship with the young man’s grandfather, Feodor. Yet, part of her knew there was much truth in what Alek, so mature for his age, had said.

Don’t many people in their desperation after experiencing the death of a loved one, unconsciously evade the stages of grief and attempt to escape from the emotional pain by beginning another relationship. But, as Alek points out in the novel, if you don’t go through these important stages of grief, you may never be whole again.

More about the importance of not rushing into a new relationship, but instead, waiting for a while and slowly grieving for the loved one…giving oneself the time needed to say farewell to that relationship before beginning another! Closure is so important to the one who is grieving!

More about all this in the next post in the series!

Love 💗 and Remarriage

Wednesday, April 11th, 2018

In this eighth post in the series of “Love and Remarriage,” based upon my historical novel, “Escape From the Maelstrom,” I will be focusing upon the experience of Karina (aka Aleksandra) and Feodor when they go up to the hotel on the mountain to share some tea and pastries to celebrate Aleksandra’s new teaching position.

The friends are excited when they enter the restaurant in the hotel, but is their happiness short-lived?

Let us listen in when the Maitre d’hotel approaches them and see what Feodor’s reaction is. I have the character, Aleksandra, narrating, and I intervene from time to time!

“As we entered the hotel, I suddenly experienced a sense of foreboding. My hands felt a little clammy, and Feodor looked at me questionably. “Is everything all right?” he whispered.

“I tried to look confident, but even that facade gave me away. Feodor knew I was apprehensive. Nervously, I followed Feodor’s lead and took off my coat.

“At that time the Maitre d’hotel walked over to us rather decisively, I thought. Looking askance first at Feodor in his casual slacks and work shirt and then at me in my ultra conservative skirt and blouse, he told us that we had come at a busy time and there were no tables left.

“I could see that Feodor was very angry. The red on his face now was not the ruddiness of his complexion. I was fearful there would be a scene.

“Feodor surprised me, however. Somehow, he positioned his angry scowl into a half-smile as he said, ‘Of course. The mid-afternoon is a busy time for tea and dessert. Next time we will make reservations.” From the nuance in his voice, anyone would know that there would not be s next time.”

It is obvious that Feodor was indignant, and he had every right to be.

“The nerve of that man!” Feodor finally said. “They put a waiter’s uniform on one of these country fellows, and he thinks he’s an aristocrat. I wanted to tell him what I thought of him, but I didn’t want to embarrass you.”

“Thank you, Feodor, for your discretion. We probably should never have gone in.”

Listen to some of Feodor’s comments about his hatred of the Czarist regime and his doubt that the communists would do any better!

“No, Aleksandra, we had every right to go in. These people want to make us feel as though we don’t belong in fancy restaurants in elegant hotels. If we agree with them, then they have won.”

Feodor goes on to say:

“This whole system has brainwashed us, Aleksandra, until we have no faith in ourselves, and we stop dreaming of what we want to be. They tear our dreams to pieces, and then they hand the splinters back to us. And if we fight the system, they kill us so we become an example to the others.”

When Aleksandra tries to make light of the incident and pacify Feodor, it doesn’t work, and Feodor continues:

“The aristocrats From Moscow and St. Petersburg are convinced that they belong there in that hotel enjoying the good life. We’re the Russian peasants, and we have the audacity to be Jewish, too! So we are asked to leave. There’s a division there that can’t be eradicated without a fight.”

Feodor continues with great intensity!

“I don’t think there’s any hope for our people in this country. Some of my friends and family believe that the Bolsheviks have the answer, but I don’t agree. Even if one day the Czarist Rule is removed by force or otherwise, I just don’t think we will have the perfect society that some of my cronies anticipate. No, I think the only thing I can do is get my family out of this country. I think our only hope is to start all over again in a country that is free.”

“Like America?” I asked.

“Like America,” he repeated.

“It’s not easy to emigrate,” I said. “It’s not as though they’re giving any Russians, especially the Jews, permission to leave this country.”

“No, but there are ways. There always are ways, my dear Aleksandra,” he said, smiling again and then winking at me. But now even his smile and wink did not fill me with anything but apprehension and deep anxiety.”

I am so excited for you to read this novel because it is so inspirational while also providing valuable information about the historical era of the early twentieth century.

If you would like to purchase the novel, go online at www.redleadbooks.com and www.amazon.com. If you wish to order by phone, call 1-800-788-7654.

Love 💗 and Remarriage

Sunday, April 8th, 2018

In this seventh post on the series on “Love and Remarriage,” we will learn more about Karina (aka Aleksandra) and Feodor, the patriarch of the Daletsky family, in whose roominghouse she is living. As they walk along the waterfront overlooking the beautiful Black Sea, the friends are talking, laughing and gradually getting to know more and more about one another. Both have lost a spouse who had meant just about everything to them. Aleksandra’s loss was recent, but Feodor’s was five years ago.

Let’s listen in to their conversation.

“You don’t go to the beach often, do you, Aleksandra?”

“No,” I said, staring at the serenity of the scene in front of me. “There was never time to vacation. Dimitri and I were always stuck in Moscow with some responsibility or other.” I couldn’t tell Feodor how it felt to be in hiding from the Romanovs and their security police. “Now this isn’t fair,” I said finally. “I told you so much about my life. You must tell me how you met Nadya.”

“Yes, it is only fair that I tell you more about myself now. You know, it seems as though I spent my whole life with Nadia, but in reality we met at a party when we were both twenty. I know it sounds foolish to believe in love at first sight, but I do, Aleksandra. Can you believe that this big, tough fisherman is a romantic at heart?”

“You are anything but tough, Feodor,” I said, my eyes tearing a little. “As soon as I first saw you, I knew you were kind and compassionate under the rough exterior. I was sure we would be good friends. And just days later, here we are… good
friends.”

“I knew that, too, Aleksandra, just as I knew well over forty years ago that Nadya would be my bride. Ours was a short courtship. Our parents both favored the marriage, and within a year, we were man and wife. Then, a year later, in 1872, Anatoli was born and two years later,Galina. I loved being a father. Family was everything to me. Did you want children, Aleksandra?

“It was never the right time,” I said, struggling with the memories of how much Dimitri and I wanted to start a family and how unfair we thought it would be to the child, considering our situation. “I am sorry now. I would have wanted the love 💗 of a child.”

“Perhaps, it is not too late,” Feodor said. “You are still young enough. If the right man comes along, who knows?”

“I think I am too old, Feodor, and I want to concentrate only upon my new position and being a good friend to you and your family.”

“Feodor smiled. ‘Let’s leave the future to God,’ he said. ‘Right now we are going to have tea and pastries in that grand hotel over there,’ he said, indicating its position above us. We would have to do a little climbing to get up there, I realized, but I could see that it wouldn’t take us long.’

“Let’s do it,” I said. “There is nothing I would like more right now than my afternoon tea in such a lovely 😊 establishment with the most scenic of views and the most interesting of companions. Please lead the way,my friend.”

“Feodor smiled and then winked at me as he gently squeezed my hand and led me upward toward the exquisite structure above.”

In the next post, I will tell you about this couple’s experience st the hotel. It will surprise you!

“Escape From the Maelstrom” is available in small or large quantities online at www.redleadbooks.com or www.amazon.com in paperback or e-book form! You can also order by phone at 1-800-788-7654

Love 💗 and Remarriage

Wednesday, April 4th, 2018

In my last post I mentioned that the two main characters of my historical novel, “Escape From the Maelstrom,” developed first a friendship and then began to embark on a romantic relationship.

I want to quote from these two sections of the novel: first today, as Karina and Feodor walk along the waterfront and then, in my next post when Karina and Feodor attempt to have tea and cake at a restaurant inside a hotel where the Russian elite stay when on holiday. In a later post, I will show excerpts from the part where Alec, Feodor’s grandson, lectures Karina – as diplomatically as he can – on the problems of getting involved in a new relationship before the old one has been brought emotionally to a close! All these excerpts are really dramatic!

In the first excerpt Karina has just completed an interview for a language position at a local high school. Not only has Feodor escorted her to the school, but the attractive and robust widower has waited for her so that he could invite her on a tour of the area along the waterfront with perhaps a cup of tea and a pastry at the restaurant in the hotel where the wealthy diplomats from Moscow and St. Petersburg often stay. Let’s see what ensues!

“There were so many things I wanted to discuss with Feodor. When he joked and he burst out laughing as he had done so many times already, I liked the way his mustache curled. He, in turn, either made me blush or laugh and forget all the sadness for a while. I felt alive again when he smiled at me or winked mischievously. Who wanted to be serious all the time anyway? If I remained serious, I was sure I would lose my mind.

“Yes, life could be too sobering. I wanted diversions. I wanted to forget that I had seen my only true love die in my arms…I wanted to stop feeling guilty for being alive and laughing with a macho, charismatic man. I wanted to scream because I couldn’t even go to my own husband’s funeral and had to flee for my life instead. But as I walked with this new, kind friend, silly words flitted through my brain. Life is but a dream, I kept thinking. Nothing but a dream. It can’t be taken seriously. Nothing anymore can be taken seriously.”

Later, Karina tells Feodor about her difficult childhood, being raised by a strict and loveless great-aunt who expected perfection from her.

“I told Feodor how I had run away and gotten myself established in Moscow. I even felt comfortable talking about Dimitri’s entrance into my life, but I made sure to omit last names. With only given names and stories that could not reveal anything that must be kept secret, I could not imagine how I could compromise myself or those whom I loved. I wondered, however, if Alek, Sasha and Uri would be so lenient. I thought not.”

Feodor asked how many years Karina had been married to Dimitri.

“Ten wonderful years,” I replied. “I know they weren’t perfect. Life is always hard,” I added, “but we were happy and so much in love. What is it that the Bible says about love compensating for the lack of so many other things?”

“You must mean, my dear, the scripture about love covering a multitude of sins,” Feodor said,
“and yes, it does. It makes up for so much else in our lives that may make us unhappy. I think that the love we feel while we are with our spouse makes up for the sadness we experience when we lose him or her. The only way that I survived losing my wife, Nadya, was remembering the love that we shared for so many years and the two wonderful children who were born from that love: Anatoli, my gentle, kind son and Galina, my beautiful but headstrong daughter. And later, what brought me through but the joy of being a grandfather to Alex, Elena and Katya. Those unimaginable blessings from God compensated in a great way for the pain of Nadya’s loss , and they gave me the strength to get through the suffering and start to live again.”

So we see the development of a close friendship between Karina and Feodor. In the next post we will learn more about Feodor from his reaction to the waiter at the tearoom inside the fancy hotel.

Until the next post, remain happy and in good health!

The novel is easily accessible! Just call the Red Lead Bookstore at 1-800-788-7654 or go online at www.redleadbooks.com or www.amazon.com

Love and Remarriage

Tuesday, April 3rd, 2018

I hope all of you are well and have enjoyed the holiday weekend. My website is working now after having been out of commission for several days…so I am able to go on with this series.

We were exploring whether there is a prescribed period of time to wait after a spouse’s death before beginning a new relationship without being disrespectful to the memory of the loved one. We were using the relationship of Feodor and Karina in my novel, “Escape From the Maelstrom,” to explore the issue. So let us proceed from there!

Remember that Karina had escaped to Odessa the day after her husband had been killed by order of the Rulers in Czarist Russia in the early 1900s, the Romanovs. Through friends in an underground movement, she was able to escape to Odessa, which would be a safe haven for her!

In her new residence, a roominghouse that is run by a Jewish peasant family, she meets Feodor, a widower, and the patriarch of the family. There is chemistry between the two, but, of course, that is something that they never plan to pursue in any way. Each denies to himself(herself) that there is even any special feeling there!

But as time goes on and everyday life throws them together in innocent situations, their attraction intensifies! Although Feodor is around sixty, he still works hard as a fisherman, and he is a loving father and grandfather. When he is not working one morning, his son asks Feodor to accompany Karina to the village for her interview for a teaching job in the local high school. He waits for her, and they take a walk near the waterfront. This is an opportunity for them to have a heart-to-heart talk and really get to know one another. It is also a way for them to encourage the feelings for each other that they have had from the moment they were introduced but denied because they both felt such attraction to be wrong under the circumstances… Karina being a widow just a short time and on the run from her oppressors…and Feodor a widower of a few years. Will their relationship turn to love? Is it wrong for them to even think of courtship and marriage?

Next time we will listen in to their talk as they walk along the waterfront! We will also hear the reaction of Alec, Feodor’s grown grandson, who is part of the Russian underground movement for a free Russia, neither Czarist nor Communist! Does he approve of their obviously having feelings for one another and perhaps even falling in love?

Until the next time, I wish you good weather and great health! The novel is easily accessible (if you would like to purchase it) at Red Lead Books or www.redleadbooks.com or at Amazon at www.amazon.com. You can also call Red Lead Books at 1-800-788-7654